random thoughts

Part of an email I wrote to my sister that I realize would double as a good blog:

I got sick on Friday, but slept like 11 hours that night so now am feeling a little better. I don't know what was up, nauseated, bloated, headache, and whole body aches. It kind of felt like something bad inside needed to sorti, but nothing happened, ha! I'm feeling ok. I just get really frustrated from time to time. But I think it's a healthy frustration. Frustration that this whole world is messed up. And seeing the faces of kids suffering just makes you feel it even more. And it's hard when you can't do a lot for them. There's one boy in the hospital now. I don't know if he'll make it, but he is suffering now. His name is Peterson, he is 2.5 years old (I wrote on my blog his name was Lorenson at first, but we got his name wrong). Malnutrition, but his whole body is swollen now and and the skin around his penis and in his groin is all sluffing off. ugg. That right there is hard to watch. oh, but how I love him. He has a spirit, he's always fighting. He even bit me once when I was trying to do the NG tube with him! I'm surprised he is still with us even now, so maybe there is still hope, I don't know. Anyway, just wanted to tell you a bit about him. He's probably the hardest thing for me right now. But there are good things too. A lot of the malnutrition kids are getting better, and the tb patients are always getting better. I realized last night that God has given me family here too. I was sitting outside the hospital with one of my best friends at the hospital - the 55 year old mother of one of the tb patients, and I guess I was just feeling a little empty and missing people. She just put her arm around me and I was thinking, woah, I have a mom here when I have to be away from my mom. Oh it was a nice realization. Ok, well anyway, enough sap for now.