Wednesday November 5, 2008

Today I feel like I hit a turning point. It feels like we've had weeks and weeks of just being frustrated. Frustrated with the people and difficulties here and forgetting a little compassion sometimes. It's been hard with Frisner here for the past couple weeks. He cries constantly if you aren't holding him, which just makes all of us mad, and work is hard with trying to carry him in the baby backpack all day. Then we go to the hospital an get even more frustrated with the lack of sanitation (that's what happens when you have 5 babies in one room, including family and all the other kids in tow...and not to mention no diapers), and frustrated with lack of knowledge of how to take care of your children. But seriously, nothing's changed, we just need a little more compassion.

So yesterday we got word that Frisner could go to House of Hope since the adoptive parents of the twin we took there a month ago said yes to adopting another Haitian baby. So today we went! We were lucky to hitch a ride with Rob, since he was going into town anyway. And wow, riding inside a car instead of tap tap was pretty luxurious. The strangest thing happened though when we were almost at the door of House of Hope. Annelies and I were feeling really really sad to give up our little friend. Ah! He really is precious and we somehow forget how he makes us want to pull our hair out when he sits with us and cries (like raging) for hours. Poor Jenny is all I can say. I hope he grows out of that soon. But I know he will be well there.

The ride back was freeing. Not only the feeling of being baby-free, but Dustin, Annelies, and I rode on the roof of Rob's truck since there were too many people and things being transported back. When we got on the roof, I said, oh man, my dad would kill me if he saw me now. But seriously besides having to dodge the tree branches, it was the nicest view in the whole house. The countryside is so beautiful now. And we didn't fall off (that one's for you dad).

And going to the hospital tonight, I felt renewed desire to be there with the patients. There's nothing like leaving to make you miss home a little more.