August 25

I've come to that point again. Asking myself, what the heck am I doing? I have a baby here - by myself. I think I'm insane sometimes - I'm walking home in the pitch black dark carrying a baby in my arms. I pray for another miracle. It's like he's in a coma, to response to anything. He's 18 days old, majorly dehydrated because he hasn't eaten well in I don't know how many days. Like you could see your stethoscope indent on his stomach. Ysemael - our first boy here. I pray for the Lord's will to be done with him, that he would be free of any evil binding him. i just don't get what's going on in his body. Please Lord heal him and help me get through this night. I'm scared he's going to die with me here.